Breast Growth on Week 3 of HRT: Happy but Afraid

Have I experienced breast growth from HRT? Though I'm happy to say yes, I'm also afraid, and in this blog post you'll find out why.

The Changes

It all started at the end of my 2nd week when I noticed that my nipples were getting more sensitive. When I read about breast sensitivity in the beginning stages of HRT, I never quite understood what that meant, until that 3-week mark hit, and I was laying on my bed. I was laying on my stomach watching TikTok on my phone when I noticed that my nipples were all of a sudden sensitive to the pressure. Then, over the next couple of days after that 3-week mark, I started noticing that my nipples were slowly increasing in size or as I like to say, "stretching out". It would fluctuate in size and I noticed that as the days went on, the more often it would look stretched out. At the end of the 3rd week ( I just started my 4th week), I started noticing that something was growing inside of my nipples, and that's when I learned that it was the breast buds that were growing. Last but not least, I recently started noticing that my chest was becoming more circular and yesterday when I was in working on my computer, I decided to hold the fat around my chest in my hands, and guess what happened? I could fit the whole glob of chest fat in my hands! I also started jiggling my chest with my hands, and that's when my proposition was validated; I was experiencing breast growth!

I'm Afraid

Though it is exciting news, it is also quite scary for me, because I'm fearful that hiding my transition in the first year will become almost impossible! I'm currently taking a very low dose of HRT mainly because of this. Although it is something I am so happy about, at the same time, I want to be able to hide my transition for the first year and I'd like it if my breasts didn't grow too much in that time so that I can still hide my transition.

For those who don't know, my family situation is very confusing. I ran away from a toxic environment in Virginia, where I grew up, and moved to Massachusetts. During that time, I was able to create the space I needed, along with a positive environment to thrive in, which I'm incredibly thankful for. I now am attending the University of Massachusetts Boston, where I'm attending my last year of my Undergraduate Program in Business Management and Marketing, and I am being helped by my family financially while I finish school. I am beyond thankful for that and it allows me to focus on school more. However, they are extremely homophobic and have no idea I'm a part of that community. Coming out to them now would be very detrimental, as I know for a fact, they will no longer continue supporting me financially and I'll be homeless again. My plan is to tell them once I'm in a place in life where I can be fully independent and financially responsible for myself, which I plan to be the next Summer of 2023.

This next year, I am working to establish a career path for myself, for once I graduate from University next Spring of 2023. I am hoping to establish myself in a career in Marketing, as well as a Youtube Content Creator and Blogger. Ultimately, I want to be an LGBTQ+ Entrepreneur and create a business, where I can sell my future clothing lines and LGBTQ+ merchandise to help people in the community feel more confident and happy with who they are. I hope that once I finish college next year, I'll have a big enough platform where I can work full-time as a Youtube Content Creator, blogger, and aspiring LGBTQ+ Entrepreneur. I know that there are still many places in this world where LGBTQ+ people struggle to be accepted and I hope that through my online platform and future business, I can serve them as best I can. I know that the next couple of years won't be easy, but every time times get tough I remind myself of this quote by Mahatma Gandhi: "Be the change you wish to see in the world".

Why Start Then?

Ok, I'm done ranting! Basically, I have a lot of goals and I have to plan very carefully, because one small mistake of my family finding out, will put me back in a place where I don't want to be again. Some might ask why I don't just start HRT in a year when I am fully independent, and my answer to that would be that transitioning with HRT is a long process, which can take anywhere between 2-5 years to see the maximum results. I'm already 22 years old now, and I don't want to delay the process any longer. The results of HRT within your first year are also a lot less apparent (just my opinion) so I wanted to kill two birds with one stone by starting this journey now, along with developing a social media platform through my Youtube Videos and Blogs during this transition, so that in a year from now when I do come out to my family as Transgender, I will hopefully have the opportunity to work my dream job of being a full-time LGBTQ+ Youtube Content Creator, Blogger, and Entrepreneur!